TUNNELS
my body
my heart
my mind
my soul
what is in them?
so many things want to come out.
i've carried these chains since BIRTH
a barrier of protection
from myself
from me hurting others
Is this just who I am?
or is it just the same challenges i've become so familiar with?
she affects me
he affects me
it affects me
they affect me
I affect me
thoughts, oh these thoughts.
these fantasies.
i don't need an escape or a bandaid.
I need a way through.
a tunnel
a tunnel through the grim, bile and muck.
through the gold, glitter and shimmer.
a tunnel through what I desire, fear, hate, crave, love, have and don't have.
No, not a way out.
A way across.
The experience is not to be avoided.
It is my path of knowledge and wisdom...
but not without the pain or regret.
If only the people I fear could accept and understand me..
and let me go
